For Now

Currently, I'm bundled in layers of coats and scarves. I feel like I haven't taken my scarf off in a couple of days. Lol. ^ ^

This week, I've been exceedingly lazy and bummish. :) But I guess it can't be helped, after a quarter of doom, I think this lazing around is necessary for balance. Unfortunately, I'm stuck working on puppets tonight. :P Tomorrow I have to go to Leslie's house and work on our show... ;_;' So, I really ought to get cracking.

I can't believe it's only 6 days till Christmas. :( I don't think that's right at all. I still feel like it should be in a week or two. Either way, I'm screwed for Christmas greetings and presents. :( I really wanted to make Christmas presents for everyone. But I don't think I'll get to it. Hopefully a card or two... 

My plan is... New Year's presents! :D Or Spring presents! Or just a really really belated Christmas present! :D It's never too late to give presents... Even if it's November..? Maybe... Ahaha...

Speaking about Christmas cards and presents, today I got two of them!  I received one in the mail from someone really unexpected! It was one of the photographers I met at a convention. I barely knew him because I thought he was more into the cosplayer I was cosplaying with at the time. In fact, I thought he didn't even recognize me or remember me from the shoot, let alone know my address! Either way, it really made me smile. I was starting to feel like a lot of the cosplayers I knew were apart of a circle that I could never be apart of. But this small gesture, really meant a lot to me. I really want to give him a Christmas card back. 

Also, someone gave me a subscription to ACP. It was another one of my photographer friends that I met around the same time. Now! I can upload more pictures and costumes. *u* (Wow. I sound like a freak T__T;) 

Either way, I was really touched by both small gestures. T___T; It really made me want to keep making costumes. My passion for it has definitely been dwindling because I felt my reasons were wrong. I mean, I do make them for my own fun and leisure, but I mean, I don't really give it enough time and love. So, now I have a better reason. :)

Other then that, the weather is just ridiculous. It got so cold lately!? I just have no idea how that happened. - -; It seriously feels like snow is about to come any second. 

*prays for snow* 

Happy Christmas everyone. :)

My Dear Friend

Hmm, I'm sure these kinds of posts will end soon... *lesigh*

For sure, this is going to be the last time I help anyone out for a project.  And you know!? It isn't because I don't like working for them, it isn't that I don't like to help out others because I really do!! 

I honestly just don't like disappointing people. :( I don't like it when I can't meet deadlines. And I don't like it when they're not happy. Blarrg! I just can't take it! I am seriously itching to get working on my own projects... and I can't even start it until I get through with the one's I've fallen into. 

Again, it really isn't the other party's fault. I really shouldn't have accepted to help them in the first place. But they asked for my help... But...

BUT could they give me some slack? I've basically spent the last several days working on one project after the other... Since Wednesday, I've managed to pull 4 all nighters, and I'm probably going to pull one tonight as well for tomorrow's final. Gahhhh, I hate this complaining I do. 

I don't want to say, "I'm just a student" because that's putting limits... but REALLY, I don't want to go to sleep at 7 am making lists about things I have to do the next day, I want to wake up and and freak out that I'm 30 minutes behind schedule. I want to EAT breakfast and enjoy the dinosaurs in my oatmeal! I want my TEA to actually SEEP! I want to lounge in my pajamas instead of head straight out the door. I want to take cat naps that don't replace my night sleep. I want to MAKE puppets for FUN and not feel horrible while doing it. I want to see my friends. I want to have fun. :(

I'm sorry if my priorities were jumbled by the thoughts of this quarter ending. I just can't wait to get out of here. Yesterday night, was horrible. :( I don't think I've ever pulled such a painful all nighter. T__T; Besides being so behind in making the porfolio, because it was large I had to work on the floor... BAH! I was basically on my knees for 24 hours. I seriously stood up... and fell over because my legs were so numb. Definitely, my brain cells are NOT regenerating...

Huuu... I want Christmas break to be fun and not consumed by this upcoming project that I just got lectured about... :( Huuuu.... I want to make Christmas presents. T___T;

OK. I better get crackin' on my final for tomorrow... :)

Good luck everyone! :3

Holy Wow.

My brain was just launched into space. *Twitch* I just found the ultimate cutting ninja. She's the super magic queen of cuts. *dies* Seriously, I can't believe someone exists that's so OCD it's scary. I'm scared. She cuts these layers of paper, one after the other, in the most robotic fashion... and creates these magical papers. HOLY WOW. It made me want to drop my cuttings... *sob*

Check her out at www.jenstark.com 

Trust me, her drawings, sculptures, and animations are all worth it. 

And it's all hand cut. *_____* 

I'm not worthy of the exact-o.

Other then that... *stares behind her* I'm stuck here in lalaland... Unable to find the motivation to do anything. T___T; I've had this project since last week and I've been unable to push myself to work on it. Darn you energy sucking puppets. :( I just realized how much I hate painting.... ._.;

I REALLY have to get a move on my finals though... :{ I think it's going to be really hard for me if I don't get a lot done tomorrow. Bah. I just can't wait for this week to be over. 

Come On, World

Tch. Mankind... you're cutting it close. Losing hope in your abilities, I am.  

Today, I read an article that I found on my friend's facebook regarding her friend who was murdered. :( It was really sad. She was stalked by some creeper and followed to her house where later he shut off the power to while her husband was at work, entered it, and attempted to handcuff her... She was able to barricade herself in a room with her one year old and 3 year old, called her husband, opened the window where the police were, dropped her children to them before he came in, completely handcuffed her and killed her. Wow. Depressing. Really people, what drives you to do such things... It makes me sad. It also makes me want to become a hermit.  

Yesterday was Pau Hana, my final for Tap Class. :) I was surprised by Yanna who gave me this ridiculously large and purple poster. Hu hu hu, I glad you could make it Yanna. *u* I hope it wasn't boring or anything. :)

Court, Jimmy, and co. couldn't make it... Sheesheek. *Karate CHOP* It's bah to listen to stories of the same excuse. Not that it really matters whether they came or not, but it irks me when the stories are different. Ahahaha.. - -;; My parent's took Vivian and I to Sushi Mura. *___* So great. I wanna go now. I'm so hungry. T__T; 

Other then that... Today I worked on my doom of a project for Miss Irons. :(

This is how it goes through the projector...

I'll post more pictures later... I'm sleep. T___T; Darn you homework that isn't for school. I still need to get cracking on my finals. :T Huuu... ;3

Arise from your Sleeeeep

So basically this week, I've been cramming all nighters. And it's not the all nighter where you go to sleep at 4 and wake up at 6, which is what I've been doing the whole quarter... BUT those ones where you don't sleep at all and just work till 7 and then get up and go to class. *____* It's been hell. 

Thursday was the worst. I actually lost my hands in Ceramics class! They felt like jelly. Lol. We were supposed to present out ceramics final project.... and trust me. I did not do as well as I hoped. I was able to sway the teacher with some stencils... But I was only able to string, bead, and hang seven bells. :( 

After class, I ran to my favorite sushi restaurant. They're closing today. :( So yesterday, I went with the original gang to celebrate their generosity that they've given us these past 3 years. Since I moved out with my old roommates, I haven't really seen them this whole quarter. So getting back together with them was kind of nice. It was a little awkward because they had been hanging out as a group, but I wasn't really apart anymore. :( It makes me kind of sad. 

Then I ran back to the apartment to meet with Leslie to pick up the projectors for Sunday. I got back... at around 8, loitered on the computer till 9 and fell into a coma before I could savor watching the Office. I kinda fell in and out of sleep on the couch enough to know that my roommates went to study at Boba Loca and get Taco Bell. But they had returned already when I woke up at 3 and that's when I moved to my room for the first time this week and slept til 12. HORRAY! Epic story of cell regeneration! :D

Today is Pau Hana! Its the final performance for all the dance classes in the WAC department. :) I'm going to be in two tap dances. ^ ^ Hu hu, I'm really excited. I'm going to make a bow tie for myself. XD

I really REALLY need to take this precious time to work on homework.

Good luck on finals and such. :3

You Can't Trace Me

Today was nice. :) Last night was not nice. It wasn't that I worked much... it was that I didn't work at all! And all I did was loiter online doing absolutely nothing till 4! - -; I really am just asking for it, because here I am, doing the same thing... I'm just looking for trouble. :( Internet be my friend!

But today was nice. :)

My sister drove all the way to UCLA for me from Riverside just so we could surprise my mom for her birthday. :3 My mom always claims to have horrible birthdays, so we always try to make it extra special each year. :) This time we got her a bunch of things that remind us of her, like red nail polish, ferero rocher, winterfresh gum, and sanrio notebooks. Lol. Each has a sort of story to it. :)

I only stayed home for 2 hours before my dad drove me back home. :) I really miss home. It was great even for the short time. Huu.. I just want this quarter to end already. I just want to stop working on things and just go to sleep on time for once. :( Jeez.

On other things, I have a new sushi buddy. :) I ate sushi with my friend, Minh today. I feel good. This is basically the first time I've gone out to eat with someone other than my roommate. I really need to get out more... My hermit ways are seriously eating away at my brain. 

Besides that, I've been troubled lately. :T Its the same story over and over... that's been going on for the past two years. Ugh. I just want it to end already!! Basically, this girl has polluted my thoughts and actions towards costume making. Its just not fair... I won't go into details because whenever I tell anyone these things, I feel like I'm seeking pity. But I realized recently that the way I look at many things now is so distorted. But everyone revolving in that world thinks she's the sweetest thing... I just don't understand. I really don't. Everything about her is a lie... she twists stories and somehow I always come out as the bad person. :T

Ugh. Ok. I'll stop. One day, I'll go into it... maybe, when I can't take it anymore.

BLARGH! Other then that! Final week of school school is about!! I'm going to attempt working on everything on Saturday (*dies*) Seriously though, the internet has to be shut down from here. :3

From the Depths of my Pockets

Guh. Here I am... procrastinating as usual. Huu... Well, I figured since I have a stomach ache... I'll take a break and write about what's going on. :)

So tomorrow is the FAST application deadline. It's basically UCLA's annual fashion show in the spring. And though I know, I've never really dealt with 'fashion' and more costume,  I decided to give it a try anyway... I mean, its nice to know all fields of the this work.

My line is cheesily named "From within my Pockets". Its basically items, places, or environments around me that I've brought to life. Cheese-tastic, I know, spare me. .__.;

But here are the sketches I've decided to turn in. All together there are 6, but I'll show you 4. The other two aren't really my favorites, at least drawn...

If my dining room came alive... 

{I don't understand why everythings underlined.}

An old photograph...

Ok, for this one I was inspired by the fact that my pockets are filled with sugar packets that I intend to refill my sugar jar with... but I don't. So whenever I wear a jacket... the pockets are normally always filled with sugar... 

So, if she came alive...

If my computer turned inside out and walked about...

Basically that's it. :)

I actually am really screwed. Tomorrow I have an appointment with my costume teacher to turn in half of my portfolio... however I have none of it done. Instead I am loitering around and am absolutely sleepy. 

I also have to paint some puppets, bah. And... finish the other half of the cut out... T___T; BUT! Luckily I got to spare myself some time!! ;3 It's not due tomorrow... it's due Sunday. *u*

Anyway... procrastination time must end. Wish me luck!

Hope everyone's having a great almost end of the quarter. :3